Rat race

Crap this sucks!
I have been in the CC for about an hour and what have I accomplished?
Absolutely nothing!

The damn server is freakin slow!
And when I really had some important things to do online too!

So it's been decided that I will be going back to Kuching 3 weeks from yesterday. (Told you it's difficult to disagree with my Mom) That's this 25th.

Briefly, the plan is to get a temp job while finding a decent one.

That plan is supposed to begin today.

I'm going through some potential employer profiles now - at least trying to what with the server acting up today of all days! - and maybe by next week I'll be sending out my applications. To date, I've only sent one CV and there doesn't seem to be any response.

Gosh it's exasperating to know my ex-classmates have landed a job! When I heard about that ENVY was the only word that could describe how I felt.

Crap! Didn't know finding a job could be so..."I-can-do-better-than-you" kind of thing. They didn't rub it in my face but I still felt that in comparison to their already having a job and me still stuck in a rut, I was doing badly. Very.

It's a rat race out there in the world. Sometimes I wish I still had classes to go to and assignments to bitch about. (A friend of mine recently furthered her studies to UUM in Kedah. I envied her so.) When we get one place, there's always some place better where we're expected to go. We go to school, get into Uni, bust our asses trying to get a piece of paper called a diploma or a degree just to deem us "fit-to-survive" in the REAL world and when we do get that, we pull our hairs out and try to get a decent job that'll provide us with a decent sum of cash so we can continue living. Soon after, we're expected to get our own wheels, our own house and our own family. Pretty soon we wake up and realise that it's our kids' turn to go through the whole deal - school, Uni, etc.

That's the life cycle for you. It's been a rat race since the day we were born! Guess it took me 23 years of my life to realise that.

Hopefully things will get better. Hopefully when I return to Kuching,there will already be some sort of interview waiting for me.

Sigh. I hate rats.

Young & Restless

FYI: This post is a tribute to those who have come and gone through what I can only describe as the most BORING phase of my life (for now)....

The transition phase of moving on from being a "student" to a "working adult".

In other words, The JobHunting Season.

To those who've been there: How did you all go through it?

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In case I haven't made myself clear, do you guys know how freakin BORING I am right now?!

My daily routine:

Wake up.
Bath.
House chores.
Breakfast.
Prepare lunch.
Lunch.
Housechores.
Nap.
Prepare dinner.
Dinner.
Watch TV.
Sleep.

And it's like that practically every single day (except Sunday go church in the morning and the other RARE exceptions like going shopping at night.)

I'm so tired of doing nothing!

Usually,I love the opportunity of resting at home and naps in the afternoon etc but when everyday is the same routine, I get headaches just thinking of sleep. I can't stand this idleness!

What makes it worse is I don't know when this waiting will end.

The plan was to take a break for a while then head back to West Malaysia and find a temp job there while waiting for my Convocation. But then, recently, my Mom decides she doesn't want to let me go back there. She wants me to find a permanent job or temp in Kuching instead.

I haven't agreed to her idea but it's usually very difficult to disagree with her. So...if I am gonna be heading of to Kch instead after this,the date is also at the moment unknown since she wants me to escort my younger brother's transfer to a new school in Kch - and if my guess is right, that could mean sometime end of February.

Another whole month of idleness!!!

I think I'm gonna die...

And finding a temp job is impossible here (Brunei) cos the employer's will not be willing to invest in paying for a work permit for a foreingner's (me-Malaysian) temp job when they can hire locals to temp without the need of the permit issue. And finding a Permanent job in Brunei? you ask. That's equally impossible as my mom doesn't want us to work here. Besides,the whole family (what's left of the remaining members that are still in Brunei) will all be moving back to Sarawak in 2009.

In conclusion, I'm definitely dying of boredom.

Help...